the words never change

just the melody here and there

a note dropped or added

as whimsy desires

you forever singing

bass notes like a bull seal

on a beach

I cling to the rocky cliff

warbling my song

a small sparrow or wren

often not heard

above the roar of the sea

or the throaty sad cries

of sea birds as they wheel and turn

their faces towards the sun

life is here now today

with both feet planted

in reality

happy is for fairy tales

and little girl's stories

I'm content with contentment

and a feeling of peace

and harmony



is that enough for you?

The sun is struggling to stay afloat
in the ocean of clouds that fill the sky 
It is a wonder to watch the play
of light and dark as shadows wander
through the garden and yard
The trees are shrugging off  their winter's cloak
the wind is whispering thoughts of spring 
of green and growing things-
I hear chickadees singing and laughing
preparing for nests and bird love
while I sit here with my coffee
watching the day glide by me
dreaming of sunshine and warmth.

You know what? I try and I try to get along with my mother in law.  For 27+ years I have been trying.  I am so sick and tired of her backbiting and talking shit about me to my kids...I don't say anything negative about her to the children. I never have. And believe me, I have plenty of ammunition there.  I simply say that she loves them, and does the best she can.  Why can't she do the same? I don't get it. Truly. *shaking my head in bewilderment*  What does she think she is accomplishing by it?  The kids tell me- especially when she tells them it is 'a secret between them'.  *sigh*  I am annoyed, and I am going to ignore her for a few days- at least until I figure out a way to tell her that I do not like her talking negatively about me to my children behind my back!  ARGH!

I am just off the phone with my daughter, Megan, and she had me in stitches telling me about her morning with the children.  I thought I would share a bit of my amusement with you. *grinning*

 

Megan was feeling cabin-fever-ishy, so she and Laura (my youngest daughter who lives nearby) decided to take the birdlings, (Johnathon and Kaitlin and Samuel) to the local McDonald's Play Place for a few hours.  The following is a bit of the conversation Megs had with her younglings.

 

Kaitlin: "Mommy, guess what we are doing?"

Megs: "What?"

Kaitlin: "We are playing cheetahs and hunters.  Johnny and his friend (another little boy they met there) can shoot us ( K and the little boy's sister), but if they miss, we get to shriek our victory,  kill them by suffocation, and eat them."

Megs: "Well now. That sounds fun.  Make sure you ask the other children if they want to be suffocated, killed, and eaten, though. You never know when someone may find it...er...well...scary and annoying to be hunted and consumed."

Kaitlin: "Okay Mommy. I will get their permission before I hunt them down and ravage their flesh with my teeth and my claws.  RAHHHHR."

 

Megs calmly turns back to Laura and Samuel, and feeds him a french fry.

 

*big Nana giggles*  Kids with imaginations. You gotta love 'em!  :o)

Things have been crazy busy.  I have been unpacking, dealing with the flu, organizing drawers, cupboards, and husband, *giggle* listening to Kaitlin stories,  dealing with my bat-shit crazy mother in law...and am still relatively sane. Good days, right?  I will write a Katilin story for you tomorrow. 

Take good care of yourselves- You are in my heart and thoughts-

ttfn- Gina

I hate everything. Including me.  Just sayin.

that's all for now.

Hello! :o)

We are in our new house, and beginning the settling in process. Matthew is in CA with my MIL-( it has been awhile since I last wrote, so)...My FIL passed away last month, and we all decided that she didn't need to be alone thru the holidays. So, Matt volunteered to to go and stay with her for a couple of months, then go and visit my parents, then good friends of his, then home again in March. I miss him!!! But he is having a good time being spoiled by, and spoiling, his Grandmother.

Kaitlin has an imaginary friend named Violet. *giggles* She told me that "Violet is a Marvel'. I asked her what a marvel was, and Katy said "A supremely awesome person, like me!" *laughing* No self esteem issues there! At any rate, Violet can fly!! And Kaitlin thinks that is wonderful!!

Johnny is still my sweetest guy, singing me songs and telling me dinosaur stories. And Samuel sings! Truly! His first sounds are "la la la la" in a very melodic way!! He LOVES it when I sing to him, and tries to copy the sounds! It truly is a marvel!! ;o)

And that, my friends, is about all she wrote. I am unpacking, unpacking, unpacking and think we have way too much crap, *giggles* but LOVE the house. It is 1600 sq Ft, 3 bdrm 1 bth, and on 2/3 of an acre with all sorts of fruit and nut trees. Apples, cherries, quince, fig, hazelnut, filberts, and walnuts!! And the fattest squirrels I have ever seen!! We have boxes half unpacked everywhere, but at least the kitchen is nearly done!! (Say Yay)!

And now I need to refill my coffee cup, and finish the laundry. I hope all is well in your worlds!!
Ciao for now!!
~Gina

We were supposed to be moving-have already moved. No such luck. If it could hit the fan, it did and has.  The car broke down to the tune of $1000+/- dollars, my good friend had three strokes, so I had her two autistic kiddos to care for; Matt freaked out, and took off- (I had to have him medicated) and he is so regressed he is playing with his toys for now...then Steven's father had two massive heart attacks on halloween, and passed away on Tuesday.  Oh yeah- and we had the phone disconnected because we are trying to save money to move, since our savings was wiped out with the car, etc.  We are 'borrowing' internet from the people next door- they know about it and are ok with it... but it is sporatic.  Anyway, we will be moving *fingers, toes and eyes crossed* towards the end of the month- as long as the bank doesn't change it's mind...

Prayers, thoughts, and energy greatly appreciated these days.  And to those who I love and who love me, sorry it has taken me so long to write about it.  It has been very draining.

Take care, and remember to tell the one's you love that you do... Gina

It is my 25th Wedding Anniversary today. *shaking my head* It doesn't seem possible! *laughing*

Happy Anniversary Steven! I love you!

The house was supposed to be ready today, but between the weather and hard-to-evict tenants, we won't be able to move until Wed.  *sigh*  Patience isn't one of my best virtues... *wry smile* This whole process is a bit triggering for me, and causing poor Matthew no end of emotional disturbances.

If you believe in this sort of thing, calming thoughts and prayers are much welcomed.

Thanks! G